As I spend my days preparing you for this world. I am silently preparing my heart for the day you are grown. The day I stand there watching you drive off into the distance, excitedly starting your journey.
On this day my heart will break.
My time will be up. I will have taught you here at home all that I can.
As much as I pray, I can not turn back the time.
Then I will remember that you were never really mine in the first place. You were always his. Our Lord sent you to me for just a little while.
In this I know you are in his hands, as he has always held you in the palm of his hands.
This day will be no different, he will take care of my son, as he will also take care of my breaking heart.
Until that bitter-sweet day approaches I pray to slow down and enjoy the time I have with this amazing little boy. Teach him all that I can and prepare him as Christ would do.
Little Man my love for you is so amazing. I often can not even find the words to describe it.
My heart overflows.
I'm so very thankful for this gift. The gift to be your mother. The gift to love you.
Lord, thank you for this precious child. Guide me as I raise him in you and help me to remember he was never really mine in the first place.
11 comments:
This just warms my heart, and breaks it also! I have the same feelings as I watch my children make their way. Even tho they are young, I know the day will come in a blink of an eye!
Don't be fooled my friend... Our time with our children is never up...and there is always more to do! No longer as nurturers, or even much for guidance... but mentoring our children is for a lifetime. They will be independant, yet the bond is still there... and when we are gone (heavenward) our bond continues as the generations multiply... it's a beautiful thing. (but don't blink, those young years go by oh so fast!) =)
great post btw...
~Sheri
wiping tears from my eyes right about now.
So beautifully written.
My heart will break too when mine are "grown" what on earth will I do when they dont need me anymore?! its something i think about a lot...great post. So true
Melissa
My last one is about to move out and it is breaking my heart, but I have to let him go.. I will be fine... Nancy
The title alone makes me want to cry, seriously!! :) Amanda
Your picture are stunning Catherine! Your little man is so handsome and has such a gentle kind energy. It really is such a special time in a womans life, to be a mother (I could never imagine a life without child). xx
Thank you Bec! Being a mother is like no other!
I used to think, before my first one grew up, that that moment would be hard. Thinking about it, so many years out - it is hard because it is unknown. However, I have this picture in my head now - of a mother bird in 2 separate pictures. In one, she and her little bird are standing on the side of the nest, looking down. Her hand is on his back. He is ready - and if she has too, she will push him to help him. She knows he is ready; it is time.
In the second picture, she is standing on the side of the nest, her hand holding fast to the collar of shirt of the other son who is desparately trying to leave the nest - but he is not ready.
I so want someone to do cartoons of those for me.
When that nest leaving time comes, it will be bittersweet but you will both be ready - because you will both have grown together to get there.
Marriage, though? Now that's something else entirely!
I used to think, before my first one grew up, that that moment would be hard. Thinking about it, so many years out - it is hard because it is unknown. However, I have this picture in my head now - of a mother bird in 2 separate pictures. In one, she and her little bird are standing on the side of the nest, looking down. Her hand is on his back. He is ready - and if she has too, she will push him to help him. She knows he is ready; it is time.
In the second picture, she is standing on the side of the nest, her hand holding fast to the collar of shirt of the other son who is desparately trying to leave the nest - but he is not ready.
I so want someone to do cartoons of those for me.
When that nest leaving time comes, it will be bittersweet but you will both be ready - because you will both have grown together to get there.
Marriage, though? Now that's something else entirely!
Blue cotton Momma~ Thank you for this. Your words bring my heart peace!
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