Blessed Adventures

 

The day you were born, I then knew what is was to hold my own heart wrapped within my arms. Those beautiful wide eyes looking up at me, tursting me and needing me. I had prayed for you from the moment I knew you were growing inside me.

Hearing your cry my heart almost could not contain the joy flowing throughout my being. Every emotion bursting within me.

The first time I saw you, your fathers eyes were filled with tears of joy while his arms were embrassing his son for the very first time. In that moment we knew what it was to be your parents. Prasing the Lord for this amazing gift he has blessed us with, you~

Holding you, I realized that you were the most beautiful baby I had ever seen, you were complete and perfect. Becoming your mother, I reveled this huge part of me, I never knew egsisted. I was made to be a mother, your mother.

As days turned to months,and months have turned to years, today is your eleventh birthday. Reliving the day you were born seems like yesterday. I can still feel your skin, I can smell your breath and my heart continues to contain that bursting emothion of love, joy and thankfulness.  

Now that you are eleven I am prayerfully balancing the need to offer freedom as you grow on your own, while placing appropriate boundaries of protection. You may have to be pasent with me, as you know I easly think of all the terable things that can happen. Mother thoughts, I can not help it. Grandma used to tell me I have a feeling and I can not go aginst my feeling. 

 In others words sometimes I have a feeling and other times I am reminding myself to let go and place you in the Lords hands. Where you truly have been from the start.

At age eleven

you are still the simple Little Man you have always been. There is a part of you that exseeds way beyond your years and an inocents that truly enjoys childhood.

you have the best of stories, that sometimes go on and on. I oray that I remember to slow down enough to take in every word, every gesture, every exspresion.....every oppertunity I have to spend time with you daily. As the saddness in my heart knows this time with you is temparay and this is when I have to pause because my heart hurts, my eyes fill with tears and I know. I know the Lord will take care my son, aswell as my heart.