Love Me for the Friend that I am~ Friendship

     I once was a friend that would run to your every need. I once was a friend that made time to see you on a weekly basis. I once was a friend that lost the afternoon, due to our conversation.  

Friendship is a form of interpersonal relationship generally considered to be closer than association.

     

  If you google the meaning of friendship this is what you will find. Although each of us carry our own definition of friendship, developed over time and experiences.

   We find friendship within our family, within our neighbour, within the blogs that we read and above all within the Lord.

I believe friendship to be a gift and even a tool he created as a validness in life.

-A reason, a season or a lifetime friend. Each friendship making an imprint on your heart and all important within each role. I know I have highlighted names and faces of friends that fit each category.
   I was the girl  that was everyones friend.  I am not saying I was miss popularity. No, I found friends in all walks of life. From "Queen B" to the "Loner".  With this I have countless friendships created over the years. Some have developed more recent than others. But, only a few would I call my lifetime friend.

  

I once was a friend that would run to your every need. I once was a friend that made time to see you on a weekly basis. I once was a friend that lost the afternoon, due to our conversation.
   Now that I am a wife and a mother I do not know how to be that friend. With this I carry guilt and heaviness surrounding my friendships.
If I am not that friend than who am I?

I am the me that starts my day in devotions with the Lord. I am the me that makes time for my husband as I strive to be the glue in the fullness of our homeschooling, homesteading and adventurous family. I am the me that walks around with grape juice stains form spills at breakfast. I am the me that must take time to enjoy the sunrise and the blue bird that flew past my window. I am the me that finds "me time" around my family. The me that has a quick chat every few weeks as I catch up with a friend or extended family. The me that still carries my passions, my silliness, my roomier heart and personality. The me that wakes up early seeking quiet and coffee. Or the me that connects with you daily ( for the few moments that my family is content) through emails, facebook and blogging. 

 This is the realization of me.
I am not saying that I am doing it correct, I am just saying this is who I am.

I do not desire a career or a life outside of this family. At least not in this small chapter.

  I desire to nurture, care and enjoy what I can.

Time is precious.

Allen and I are growing older and before we know it our children will be leaving the nest. I would hate to look back and regret placing them  a few rows down on my list of importance.

As I bluntly state this, I am not saying relationships outside of our immediate family are not important to me.
They are, you are!
Within this chapter these relationships are maintained with a chat every few weeks, time spent including my family and (on a rare occasion) time spent without them.

If I could say anything to my lifetime friends I would tell them I am the friend that prays and will always want what is very best for you. I am the friend that thinks of you often. As I miss and treasure the endless days of conversation and laughter. I am the friend that will always be true and I am the friend that if you look in my heart, you will find yourself there.

 So to my lifetime friends. If you can bare with me in this chapter and always remember I carry you here in my heart. May our family get togethers, our chats and our rare occasions out be enough for you. May it be enough until my life slows a bit and my afternoons are once more open to get lost in conversation.

   May you love me for the wife, the mother and the friend that I am~