It has been creeping on for some time now. This year, this season in life, this struggel. We all have times in our life that seem to be an ongoing rut of trial.
I am here and opening up, this is my season.
Being raised to send up praise for our blessings, as I trust in him through our trial. I often isolate my struggle. How could I even think about complaining when I am blessed beyond mesure?
If you have been reading here long, you know that at some point I will talk about the struggel, after I have worked it through that is.
This "season" has been a LONG one. Leading me to isolation with my struggle. With this I am here to share and as I gulp this lump in my throt, I am here without THE solution to inspire you with.
So please inspire me. Pray for us that we may stay strong and grow within this trial.
Anziaty, unorginized chaos. Family illness , along with loss, hospital
Thankfully I was also raised to stand up, dust off and ask what is it going to take to make it work? In this I anilyzed my life and started fighting.
I wrote out our scedule, I gutted the home of unnessesary clutter, I prayfully pushed unwilling children to jump on the wagon..... and the pressure was letting up just in time for our school year to start.
Disobediance, laziness, aguing, direspect.
I pray, I try, I stress and pray and try. I stop.
I ask myslef what in the world is it going to take to make this work. The Lord will only allow me what I can handle.
Our home finally holds it's harmony.
Is money the root of evil?
As many of you know, we make it on very little. In this we found the gift of simplicity, frugal simplicity, less stuff more life. I have blogged on end over the happiness that is reveled in simplicity. We grow much of our meals, along with menu planning for two weeks and cooking in a bulk to save, I find clerity, contentment and joy.
While desiring something new, we wait it out. Sometimes we see if we can create something close to it on our own, relize it is not really something worth purchacing, or we save and eventually buy this desired item.
To what I once saw as a cross has been one of our greatest gifts.
Even in times of brokeness and waiting for payday, we have enough and the only thing on our sholders is our small house payment, aswell as the ability to be home with our children. Where we all want me to be.
You would think having the gift to see and understand something that most can not, you would not be thrown off track. You would guard this gift and protect it, while doing your best to inspire others.
When Allen moved from one job to the next, we came into a little money. Nothing huge, but more than we had addapted ourselves to.
In this, everything we knew went out the window. We were picking up dinner ont he rode night after night. Selfehly treating ourslef to our desired goods. About half way throgh, I started to notice what was going on here. The kids with all the fun new adventures and toys were not grounded and happy.
Our devoted leader was not sitting us down for family prayer after dinner, remember dinner was ont he rode.
What is it going to take to make it work? I stop, I pray and I try to get back, but it is a struggle when you are dried up.
Relizing no one else could see this mess we were in, I started praying almost continuouslly, In the night and day. Frustrated that nothing was moving back into the simlicity our family once knew, I found myslef in struggle and shame.
The devil has a way of sticking it to you, when you are down. Prayfully pushing the thoughts, still in isolation I am struggling.
This week I bottomed out, I was making the change. We were not going to move back to being us, we were going choose to just do it.
many visits with Allen, we have joinned in this fight to give our family the life our Lord wants of us.
1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
Proverbs 3:6
In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.
Proverbs 3:5
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.
Mark 5:36
But overhearing what they said, Jesus said to the ruler of the synagogue, “Do not fear, only believe.”
2 Timothy 1:7
For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.
Hebrews 13:8
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever
Luke 10:27
And he answered, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.”
1 Peter 5:7
Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.
Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through him who strengthens me.
John 16:33
I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”
James 1:3-4
For you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
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